Timing Is Everything.

"Everything affects everything."

I don't know how to begin here. My life motto lately has been "everything happens for a reason." And I find this to be true. But the real question is why? Why do things have to happen the way they do?

I feel as if a lot of things would've been done differently in my life if they would've occurred at different times.

If I wouldn't have moved, I wouldn't have met my best friend. I wouldn't have fallen in love. I wouldn't have been bullied. I wouldn't have been hurt so much by a select few people. I wouldn't have met so many people. I wouldn't have gone to Germany. I wouldn't regret a lot of things.

But it happened. And I can't take that back. So should I be thankful?

I have a few things to say to certain people, but don't feel confident enough to put their names. Sorry.
1. UGH. You are so frustrating and I don't know why I let you control my emotions. But you do. Sometimes I feel so strong and I feel as if I've moved on, but I haven't. I was pretending to be strong. Really, I'm weak. I wish I could let you go, but things are easier said than done. I think you're done with me though. I hate that. I wish things were back like they were before.
2. WE HAVE BAD TIMING. I'm sorry for being a jerk to you. I'm proud of you for joining the Marines and doing something with your life! And I know you're chasing after me, but maybe I want to chase you. Ease up on me a bit. I promise, if you lead I'll follow. And I'm still waiting on all of your promises. I hope things will work out.
3. In the words of Copeland, "just let me run where I want to run, just let me love who I want." Please.
4. Thank you for always being there for me. I don't tell you that enough. I hope we will always remain best friends.



I have a lot of things to say, and a lot on my mind, and a lot that I need to do and I feel OVERWHELMED.




Timing affects everything.




Hopelessly,
Stevie