"All the world's a stage, and we are merely players."

It's 10:30 and I can't sleep. Kindof have something on my chest, but not sure how to express it. Not like that'll do me good anyways. My stepdad is snoring on the couch and our power just flickered on and off; thank you powersurge chord.
Lately I've been thinking too much about my future, and I ask myself the same question everyday. "What am I going to do with my life?" Not what I want to do, not what is realistic, but what am I going to do? And honestly, I don't know. I have no idea what I'm going to do. I'm about to start my senior year in high school, and I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm about to start applying to colleges, and I don't know what I'm going to do. That's terrible. Shouldn't I know by now? I mean, I have options, of course. I could easily pursue theater; my real love in life. I love being on stage, the sense of performance. I feel at home on stage. And I'm just as easily okay with being behind the scenes. Managing a production. But theater isn't a realistic goal. Really, what would I do with that degree? Teach it, surely. But that wouldn't make me happy. And then I thought about business. I've always wanted to own my own coffee shop. But god, that's so expensive. I'll be doing well if I can pay off student loans. I'm not okay with living in debt for forever. But, owning my own coffee shop/restaurant would make me happy. I would look forward to working everyday. And then sometimes I think I would just like to couchsurf my days away. Maybe follow a band, document their trip and successes. Live on the road. Get paid enough just to eat and live off of. And I love that idea. But what would I go to school for? It would all be a waste. And what would happen if I ever wanted to start a family? I can't raise a child on a tour bus.
But I guess everything in life happens for a reason. Sometimes we're confused about why, when, or how it happens. But it does, it always will.

I'm not going to say that I don't want a fairytale life, but maybe my fairytale is just a tad different than the rest of the world.



Hopelessly,
Stevie

Slack, Really.

Well, first of all let me apologize for being so slack. I never have the time anymore to get on here and let you in on my life. But, I can try to recap the past few months.

June 11 I left for Germany. I've decided to go back again, next summer. It was truly a life changing experience, and I will never forget it. I came back home July 3, only to be relocated to a new house in Lugoff. It's not too bad, we actually have lived in this house before; I grew up in Lugoff. But it'll be hard trying to transition into a new school my senior year. SPEAKING OF WHICH; holy crap! I'm a senior. I've been trying to get stuff done for school, register for college courses, get senior pictures taken care of, etc etc. Summer is not supposed to be this hectic.

I also have to find a job, soon. Meh.


Hopefully, I'll be able to adjust soon. I'll keep you updated.


Hopelessly,
Stevie