I think it's moments like these - at 3:00 AM - that you truly sit back and examine what's on your mind.
I've recently come to the conclusion that there isn't someone who's really prince charming; NO ONE is going to come and sweep you off of your feet. If you need someone to rely on, it will be yourself. And most importantly, fairytales do not exist.
A little harsh, you say? Maybe. I'm not just saying that because of "bad experiences." But really, think about it. How many times have you "been in love" but as soon as that person walks out of your life, you hate them? That's not love. It's just not.
As for all of those free-spirits out there...right on. But don't you want someone to be there with you eventually? I mean I understand the appeal of not having any real relationships and not caring... But aren't there times in your life when all you want is to be with that one person who understands you? Not overwhelming, smothering people, but someone who lives your same lifestyle. Ya dig? Just a thought.
Just been thinking a lot lately.
Hopelessly,
Stevie
Friday, January 14, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Goodbye 2010; Hello 2011.
Where to begin. I'd kindof like to re-cap on this past year... I know it's somewhat the "cool" thing to do, but I hope that I'll be much more entertaining than everyone else.
January
New Year's Eve 2010 was one to remember. Rebekah Swygert and I were the best of friends - and even had our own band. We opened up for the New Year's Breakdown Bash, and this is where I met so many people who changed the way I viewed life.
I loved (and still do) going to concerts, and of course hanging out with fellow musicians! This is when I met Ryan from Seven Story Fall... yum yum yum. One boy I will NEVER forget. Haven't spoken to him in awhile...
This is also when Andrew Bennett was in my life. What a wonderful human being. I was such a jerk to this guy... Dang.
Things didn't really work out with Andrew... it was all my fault, too. But, I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. School went on, and then one day in early February I met the person that would change my life forever.
February
Patrick Joseph Ruff Jr. came into my life out of nowhere... I loved every minute of it. He was the most romantic, loving, caring, sensitive, and kind person that I have ever known. He was a great boyfriend, but most importantly he was a great friend. I'll never forget all of the memories he and I shared... but people change, and unfortunately they have to be the ones to change themselves back.
At this point in my life, things could not have been better. I had a great boyfriend, a great bestfriend, a great band, and I had scored the lead role in the spring show, Much Ado About Nothing. However, it was in this month that I learned that I wouldn't be graduating with all of my fellow classmates - I would be moving in the summer back to Lugoff and would have to finish my senior year as an LE Demon.
March
This month went by too quickly. My German exchange student, Miriam, and the other exchange students came over to live with us. She is such a precious girl, and is a sister to me. I'm so glad we were able to spend so much time together, and I'm glad I could show her how Americans do it ;)
The rest of this month flew by... Miri and I were always on the go!
April
What a lucky group of Germans... they got to stay with us an extra week because of that crazy volcano in Iceland that sent volcanic ash everywhere. I call it a blessing. We had to say goodbye to them this month.. and what a terribly sad moment for all of us.
++Journal quote:
"I felt a pang in my stomach this morning as soon as I woke up. Miriam came and crawled into the bed with me, and that's when it finally hit me that she would be leaving a few hours later. So we all got up - Miriam packed the rest of her things, and we went to Waffle House, and then straight to the airport. All that I can really say that happened was picture taking and tears. It was the saddest goodbye that I've ever had to go through. I miss them all so much... :( And of course they're all tagging us in facebook pictures - which pop up on a daily basis. I can't wait to see them again." -Friday, April 23
May
This month was interesting. PJ came home from having his brain surgery, and was a completely different person. This is when everything started to go downhill.
++Journal quote:
"Friday after the show, we had a cast party at D's. A normal tradition. PJ went with me, but didn't act like himself at all. I think everyone else could tell how annoyed I was getting from his attitude, because Aaron sent me a text saying, 'You look miserable.' I guess I was." -Sunday, May 2
I started packing up all of my belongings this month, because Mom had bought our old house in Lugoff. PJ and I "officially" broke up, but I still loved him. School came and went, and I was a Junior Marshall in the graduation ceremony. This was also the month that Katherine (my now BESTTTT FRIEND) and I started becoming friends! :)
June
I quit my job at Chick-fil-A this month. It was a pretty decent job, but I hate the fast-food industry, and I will NEVER work in a fast-food place ever again. On the 11th of June, I boarded the big Lufthansa aircraft and went to Germany for 3 weeks to stay with Miriam! It was an adventure I'll never forget (or ever stop talking about) :P
I learned so much while I was over there... NEVER TAKE LIFE TOO SERIOUSLY. Stuff happens, but you just have to move forward. Oh and take 5 minute showers. SAVE THE EARTH! :)
July
Moved to Lugoff the day that I returned to the US. It was so hard.
++Journal quote:
"I feel like my life still belongs in Columbia."
I spent the majority of this month going to shows with my best friend Kat.
August
I GOT A JOB AT CHILI'S.
Transferring to a different school my senior year was ROUGH. It took me awhile to make friends (weird..) but I think I've finally adjusted. I made a best friend here; his name is Matt Wiesen. And he means a lot to me.
September
This month was a blur. All I remember doing was waking up, going to school, coming home, nap, work, sleep, and doing it all over again. PJ and I talked this month, but we just can't get along... I started up this weird "fling" again with Brandon Adams... WHAT A WASTE OF TIME. Some people never change..
October
Bridge North... man what a blast. Sometimes, envy and jealousy get in the way of reality.
http://www.purevolume.com/bridgenorth - it was fun while it lasted, boys.
Also went to Oktoberfest in Newberry :) And I met a German family!
November
School school school. Work work work. Sleep sleep sleep. Go to a show, see Kat, eat.
Mhmmmm.
December
Best month of the year. I got accepted to my top choice school, Furman University! I got a new Jeep for my birthday (a month early). And I got to spend time with an amazing person, Sam Fountain.
Thanks, 2010, for being so good to me. Also, the last few days were excellent. Spent New Year's Eve Eve with Kat and Lindsey watching my favorite bands (All Get Out and Junior Astronomers) and then rang in the New Year with too many people at a party in Elgin. HAPPY NEW YEAR ;)
To Stevie in regards to 2011:
NEVER TAKE LIFE TOO SERIOUSLY. Remember learning that in Germany? Well, don't forget it. Don't let anyone EVER bring you down. No one would ever be worth your time if they did. Live your life, take chances, and most importantly don't forget who you are.
-From, Self.
Get ready for this, 2011. <3
Hopelessly,
Stevie
January
New Year's Eve 2010 was one to remember. Rebekah Swygert and I were the best of friends - and even had our own band. We opened up for the New Year's Breakdown Bash, and this is where I met so many people who changed the way I viewed life.
I loved (and still do) going to concerts, and of course hanging out with fellow musicians! This is when I met Ryan from Seven Story Fall... yum yum yum. One boy I will NEVER forget. Haven't spoken to him in awhile...
This is also when Andrew Bennett was in my life. What a wonderful human being. I was such a jerk to this guy... Dang.
Things didn't really work out with Andrew... it was all my fault, too. But, I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. School went on, and then one day in early February I met the person that would change my life forever.
February
Patrick Joseph Ruff Jr. came into my life out of nowhere... I loved every minute of it. He was the most romantic, loving, caring, sensitive, and kind person that I have ever known. He was a great boyfriend, but most importantly he was a great friend. I'll never forget all of the memories he and I shared... but people change, and unfortunately they have to be the ones to change themselves back.
At this point in my life, things could not have been better. I had a great boyfriend, a great bestfriend, a great band, and I had scored the lead role in the spring show, Much Ado About Nothing. However, it was in this month that I learned that I wouldn't be graduating with all of my fellow classmates - I would be moving in the summer back to Lugoff and would have to finish my senior year as an LE Demon.
March
This month went by too quickly. My German exchange student, Miriam, and the other exchange students came over to live with us. She is such a precious girl, and is a sister to me. I'm so glad we were able to spend so much time together, and I'm glad I could show her how Americans do it ;)
The rest of this month flew by... Miri and I were always on the go!
April
What a lucky group of Germans... they got to stay with us an extra week because of that crazy volcano in Iceland that sent volcanic ash everywhere. I call it a blessing. We had to say goodbye to them this month.. and what a terribly sad moment for all of us.
++Journal quote:
May
This month was interesting. PJ came home from having his brain surgery, and was a completely different person. This is when everything started to go downhill.
++Journal quote:
I started packing up all of my belongings this month, because Mom had bought our old house in Lugoff. PJ and I "officially" broke up, but I still loved him. School came and went, and I was a Junior Marshall in the graduation ceremony. This was also the month that Katherine (my now BESTTTT FRIEND) and I started becoming friends! :)
June
I quit my job at Chick-fil-A this month. It was a pretty decent job, but I hate the fast-food industry, and I will NEVER work in a fast-food place ever again. On the 11th of June, I boarded the big Lufthansa aircraft and went to Germany for 3 weeks to stay with Miriam! It was an adventure I'll never forget (or ever stop talking about) :P
I learned so much while I was over there... NEVER TAKE LIFE TOO SERIOUSLY. Stuff happens, but you just have to move forward. Oh and take 5 minute showers. SAVE THE EARTH! :)
July
Moved to Lugoff the day that I returned to the US. It was so hard.
++Journal quote:
I spent the majority of this month going to shows with my best friend Kat.
August
I GOT A JOB AT CHILI'S.
Transferring to a different school my senior year was ROUGH. It took me awhile to make friends (weird..) but I think I've finally adjusted. I made a best friend here; his name is Matt Wiesen. And he means a lot to me.
September
This month was a blur. All I remember doing was waking up, going to school, coming home, nap, work, sleep, and doing it all over again. PJ and I talked this month, but we just can't get along... I started up this weird "fling" again with Brandon Adams... WHAT A WASTE OF TIME. Some people never change..
October
Bridge North... man what a blast. Sometimes, envy and jealousy get in the way of reality.
http://www.purevolume.com/bridgenorth - it was fun while it lasted, boys.
Also went to Oktoberfest in Newberry :) And I met a German family!
November
School school school. Work work work. Sleep sleep sleep. Go to a show, see Kat, eat.
Mhmmmm.
December
Best month of the year. I got accepted to my top choice school, Furman University! I got a new Jeep for my birthday (a month early). And I got to spend time with an amazing person, Sam Fountain.
Thanks, 2010, for being so good to me. Also, the last few days were excellent. Spent New Year's Eve Eve with Kat and Lindsey watching my favorite bands (All Get Out and Junior Astronomers) and then rang in the New Year with too many people at a party in Elgin. HAPPY NEW YEAR ;)
To Stevie in regards to 2011:
NEVER TAKE LIFE TOO SERIOUSLY. Remember learning that in Germany? Well, don't forget it. Don't let anyone EVER bring you down. No one would ever be worth your time if they did. Live your life, take chances, and most importantly don't forget who you are.
-From, Self.
Get ready for this, 2011. <3
Hopelessly,
Stevie
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